Alter Ego

Friday, October 31, 2008

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
Ain't goin' away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
Ain't goin' away

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
This crush ain't goin' away
Ain't goin' away
Ain't goin' away
Ain't goin' away

The song Crush by David Archuleta is playing in my head. Somehow, i just felt that the lyrics, those in bold, is kind of related to my current situation right now. Tried to move on but i saw her, i know i just can't move on.

You asked me why we ain't what we used to be.

Well, the truth is, cause i'm stuck on you

at 12:27 PM

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

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Nampak sah dah takder kerja.

BYE!

at 11:16 PM

Friday, October 24, 2008

F* U ppl.
Hey, atleast i have the decency to censor it. U guys are the most talented "ACTORS" i've ever met. Yeah, BLOODY TALENTED. Dun like wat i write here den bloody hell leave. Feeling the heat of wat i wrote den BLOODY HELL, HATE TAG ME, U piece of GOD KNOWS WAT.

Funny. Yeah, its funny. Being all friendly to me and suddenly behind my back the BITCHINESS ARISED. For god sake, just a bloody piece of shite doesnt make the whole artefact black!

You people are EFFING HYPOCRITE! AND NOW I HAVE TO WATCH UR TALENTED ACTING SKILLS SHOWING RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES LIKE IT IS SOME KIND OF A MOVIE.

Done. dats all i've got to say. People, always surprises me. Everyday.

Now, i change. A new me. Hit me, i'll hit u back. HARD! With ammunition supplied. Don't believe, try me. I can be as SUPER - Childish to u as u wanted. Be that BAD ASS.

Keep this in Mind - "Fadzz, when Provoked, Stay away."

at 12:15 AM

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

SHIATE!!!!!!

It was supposed to be Dark Brown!!!

But Now, i got a ....

Im super dead.

Dad's gonna beat me
Kill me
AARGH!!!!

at 9:16 PM

Everything Changes Now.
Like they said, it have to start somewhere ain't it?

at 8:10 PM

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

A tiring day with school starting as early as 8am and den headed to work.
Work was surprisingly okey! Had fun as it was my first time entering the transit terminal. Went to play free Lan Games and watches Free movies while waiting for my manager who is late :P. Another long day tomorrow. Gah! Wanna have karaoke sessions with u guys!!! Hanis, Raymond, Faz, Haz, Shera, Ashari and Imah! Karaoke!!!!!!!

Anyway, wanna change. Yeah, change evrything. Why? Cause everything changing.

I don't see you looking at me normally. Things happened, People changed.
Condemned by own faults. Picture painted clear. I'm no longer here.
I'm changing. Yeah, I'm changing.
Be that person you'll never know. And i do hope you'll never know.
The journey was short with beautiful memories riding along.
Had to take my leave because i could feel it.
I'm no longer needed here. No longer accepted.
No worries. Here, i'll take my leave.
Peace.

at 12:32 AM

Monday, October 20, 2008

Rahsia Dunia

Andai ku tahu rahsia dunia
Akan ku jawab segala pertanyaan
Adakah bulan sentiasa setia
Menemani kita setiap masa

Nyanyian lagu syahdu berkumandang
menyentuh hati dan juga perasaan
tatkala hari menjadi senja
Suasana sepi amat dirasa

Andai ku tahu rahsia dunia
Akan ku jawab segala pertanyaan
Rahsia dunia sangat mendalam
Sekali pandang tidak ku perasan

Ku cuba mengerti setiap cerita
Mencari makna yang ada tersurat
Adakah kita sangat mulia
Kerana kita dunia yang musnah

Andai ku tahu rahsia dunia
Akan ku jawab segala pertanyaan
Masihkah kita ternanti-nanti
hari bertemu dengan illahi

Mungkin kita tidak menyangka
akan berubah dihari kemudian
Atau mungkin ini sudah dijangka
cuma kita manusia enggan menerima

Andai ku tahu rahsia dunia
Patutkah ku kongsi kepada mereka?

Li Suriani

at 12:44 AM

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Whoah. Had quite a cool day today.
Went to get my jab done with Imah since Shera and Denz change their date to go. So went straight home and get changed. Den off to my first basic theory lesson.

Gah! The bike is damn Heavy! Well, i guess i did okey. But got scolded by a malay instructor because i'm a malay. :P. Said, all malay boys must already know how to ride a bike and am being a shame for not knowing how. So yeah. Anyone who have a bike, help me! Probably be asking abg Fuad to help me. Let's hope he can.

at 9:39 PM

Friday, October 17, 2008

Hey hey hey. Missed today's Club meeting due to work training. Today work training is the last one since the nxt class, most of us will be separated. Class was okey. Wasn't my own self during training. Received ur msg. Though it was just *****, it really mke my day. Was happy to get ur msg. Yeah see you soon.

Since Shera came in today, Raymond, Haz, Faz and some others tease me like hell. Haha. Make me abit uncomfortable to chat wiff her. But, it was okey after sometime. This is wat happen when i hit it off quite well wiff a gerl. :P. Going to be alone from tmrw till Sat or mayb Sun. Parents and sis gg to JB.

Meeting some of the Ex Street-Slackers tmrw i guess. Playing soccer at NP. Woohoo!!! Tk yah gi AMK! Will be going for my typhoid Jab on Sat with Shera, Denz and Imah. Then off to Bike Class!! Can't wait!

at 1:36 AM

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Quite a short day today in school. Had LocPro. Was grouped with Buddy Yixin, Phua and Facade partner, Huda. Larris with Zoe. Though LocPro is only for 3 hours, i cant help myself from sleeping. Argh!! 3 whole days to woke early coz me to be in a sleepy mode often during class. Thank god tmrw is @ 12.

Another day at training. Was alrite. 2 New ppl joind the class. One of them is Nina. A year 1 at TP taking Veterinary Course. Damn clever. Former Zhonghua student.

....

Why the hell am i writing all about her??? Hahaha. Ohwell. Put her with Denz in one room together, they won't hear anyone but themselves. :P. Anyway, Shera wasn't allowed to enter class today as she was late. Our facilitator today was quite fun.

Gah. I really need timeout. So little time and so much stuff to do.

at 1:11 AM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Had such a long day.
9 hours of school including 1hr break. Lectures back-to-back. Work training. Gah! I even miss my first Audio Class! Dangs!

Aniways, the Starbucks Training class was okey i guess. Made a couple of couple friends.

Close Frens:-
Shera Elza, Ashari, Denz and Jason

Other cool peeps:- Ikhsan, Faiz, Nantheniel and Raymond

Shera Elza was the first friend i made as i came a tad too early. She is 16 but look like 14 to me. Damn young! Another loong day.

at 12:13 AM

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Stuff happens. Just moving on with life.
Guess i'm too worn out to entertain with such "Ketam". Not that active nowadays and many more to come. Perhaps its for the best. Oh well. MiSteR WoRkaHoLic is back. Packing my whole week with School, Work, Driving classes and drama. Gosh! Haiz. Guess i'll be missing a whole lot of Dikir trainings and preformances. Temper resistance running low. Need a self-reflection day. With silly problems that went a bomb, who needs enemy.

at 12:11 AM

Friday, October 10, 2008