Alter Ego

Monday, January 26, 2009

Well, there's kind of a technical prob in the chalet thingy.
And for the second time i got people, without knowing the full story, blame me for it.

Okay. About the chalet. I book it only after getting the green light from aishah. Got the information from zizie that most could make it on the given time therefore, i book on that particular date.

Now that you guys told me (indirectly) that you people want to change the date, me and aishah now trying our best to change the chalet to another date. Hope you guys would directly come to me or at the very least email me the date. The original date i can't book firstly because it is public holiday making it almost 2-3 times much more expensive and secondly because there is no slots left. Will be waiting for all of you guys email. Do email me back by friday as i need to get done with this fast. My exams and projs are starting this very week. So please, do co-operate with me. Any enquiries, you know how to get to me.

Its in red coz it is important. Aishah and prob some of you guys really want this to happen, so please help me out here and be cooperative. Thanks.

at 5:05 PM

Saturday, January 17, 2009

I have to step up my game or face the consequence of losing everything....

at 5:03 AM

Friday, January 9, 2009

Woot!! BIG SIS! Haha. She also got a younger bro around my age with the same name. Haha. She treats me like her bro. And all my pics taken with her is with her camera. Gah.

Took this pic with my airport friends. The guy on the right end is like my twin. Both of us are turning 19 this year and we are born on the same day. Haha. What luck.

Part of The MCC Family. My peeps. My poison, my cure.

Starbucks peep. Pretty people. You guys are love.

Random stuff....

at 2:01 AM

Monday, January 5, 2009

I thought i knew what i was doing but i guess i didn't. If "that" never happen, i guess i won't ever feel this way. Towards you. Before, we were friends. Well, we still are. The thing is, when i lost you once, i felt different. I felt... empty. Lost. Looking forward to see you, just to see that smile on your face. Those giggles. Especially the sound of your voice. You might have heard about me going out with another girl. Yes but you are forever stuck here. In my mind.

Went to camp to forget about it. Forget? Getting worse in fact. Dream of you. Now listening to "Lagu Untuk mu" by "Meet Uncle Hussein". About two hearts that can never be together due to certain reasons. I just know that me and you. Never going to happen.

We used to be close. Used to. I heard about you with another guy. Happy to hear that. Jealous too. Any guy that manage to win your heart is a lucky man. I'll tell him that. This problem i'm facing is different than any other. Why? Because it's the first time that i dream about a girl. I mean, its weird. You get my drift. This girl. Different. Yeah, all girls are different but this. I don't know. I'm confused. When we first met. I've dreamt that i would have this feeling for her. Not now. Friends. Why can't that feeling just stay that way? Well, maybe it should. I must. Don't i?

Haha. Such a long post this is. I've got an essay to finish up and paper to study for tomorrow but i guess, i just need to let this feelings out. It's been kept for too long. I'm hurting myself in the process. Shitty feelings. Come at the wrong time. The past few weeks. All i yearn is to see your face. I kept peeking. Just getting a glance is enough. I sound like a stalker. I know. Haha.

I cried. I'm shattered. I'm downed. I put up with a smile. You don't need to see the weaker side of me. Heard, you may. You too put up a brave front in front of the others and i'm pround of that. Of how strong you are. I'm broken. Tears falling down your face pearced me deep inside. You might never know. You might stumbled upon these modest blog of mine but i hope you never know who i meant. Because i don't want you to feel weird around me. Feel different.

I withdrawn. You might even not noticed it. I backed out. And i hope i can leave you. Leave everyone behind. Hope you don't notice me leaving. Enjoy your life and those around you and forget about me. It's better that way. Saying my last goodbye to you.

Time shall heal whatever is broken. Still got 2 years left of school. It'll take up my time. Quiting Starbucks soon. Parents already angry about it. Guess i'm not going to work for the rest of my poly life. Got to start finding stuff to do to get cash. Errands. Design. Acting. Whatever. I need it.

You might never see the last of me but i try. I could try so you might see the less of me. Oh well, you won't see the difference anyhow. Why would you care? I'm just another person who stumbled upon you and enter into your life. I'll go out the same way. I'll find the exit. Our shall pass each others but never shall it intertwined.

So long there. Hope this end. Fast.

Thought of a guy,
M F S F S

P.S. Smile always aite.

at 2:24 PM

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Ku Sedar Kau Bukan Yang Pertama, Tapi Ku Harap, Kau lah Yang Terakhir.

Confused yet again. Just when i thought it was over, it returned again yesterday to haunt me. Moving on was on the list next but yesterday it took a last grasp turn to the other side. You questioned. I wondered and I figured. No matter how hard i tried, I just couldn't find the solution. He asked what i mean. What i feel. I Don't know. I don't know. She appeared in my dreams yesterday, i said. It's weird. It's scary. Because i always try to take a peek at her, just to see the smile. Its crazy. I'm crazy. No solution, I figured. Let me just suffer in silence. Peace.

at 8:30 PM

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Started 2009 with a "BANG!".
Meet up with Adin, Sherlyn, Mavis, Yixin and Zoe-anne before joining with my Sec sch mates at Marina to catch the fireworks.

Head down to Home Club to meet up with Caroli, Yee Ting, Ee Xuan and their fren, Hong Wen for a nite of excitement and PARTY!!!! Lin couldn't managed to come down as she was from Chijmes.
Yixin had to head to Zhizhi house as there's no bus heading to her house.
Yo Budd, we should really go there together. Then we can dance the nights out. Me, U and The DanceFlooR. Hahaha. We sure gonna party hard! :P

Had to go off early though. Reachd home at 4am while bro came in at 4.45am. Haha.

So let's begin my New Year Resolution.
Here's what i can came up with in 5 mins :

1. Have less drama moments in life(not my theater)
2. Be a good son.
3. Get my Driving License
4. Save up for Bali outing with Su
5. Avoid smoking (because bad for health, waste of money and she hates it)
6. No drinking (Puking doesn't make you cool, you lose yourself = not cool, Hangover = Pain in the ass and lastly coz she don't let me.)
7. Re-learn my guitar skills
8. Improve my GPA
9. Lastly, to make her smile. Always. Everyday. I try.

Yup. That's the 9 resolution i can think of in 5 mins.
'09 here we go.

at 1:58 PM