I thought i knew what i was doing but i guess i didn't. If "that" never happen, i guess i won't ever feel this way. Towards you. Before, we were friends. Well, we still are. The thing is, when i lost you once, i felt different. I felt... empty. Lost. Looking forward to see you, just to see that smile on your face. Those giggles. Especially the sound of your voice. You might have heard about me going out with another girl. Yes but you are forever stuck here. In my mind.
Went to camp to forget about it. Forget? Getting worse in fact. Dream of you. Now listening to "Lagu Untuk mu" by "Meet Uncle Hussein". About two hearts that can never be together due to certain reasons. I just know that me and you. Never going to happen.
We used to be close. Used to. I heard about you with another guy. Happy to hear that. Jealous too. Any guy that manage to win your heart is a lucky man. I'll tell him that. This problem i'm facing is different than any other. Why? Because it's the first time that i dream about a girl. I mean, its weird. You get my drift. This girl. Different. Yeah, all girls are different but this. I don't know. I'm confused. When we first met. I've dreamt that i would have this feeling for her. Not now. Friends. Why can't that feeling just stay that way? Well, maybe it should. I must. Don't i?
Haha. Such a long post this is. I've got an essay to finish up and paper to study for tomorrow but i guess, i just need to let this feelings out. It's been kept for too long. I'm hurting myself in the process. Shitty feelings. Come at the wrong time. The past few weeks. All i yearn is to see your face. I kept peeking. Just getting a glance is enough. I sound like a stalker. I know. Haha.
I cried. I'm shattered. I'm downed. I put up with a smile. You don't need to see the weaker side of me. Heard, you may. You too put up a brave front in front of the others and i'm pround of that. Of how strong you are. I'm broken. Tears falling down your face pearced me deep inside. You might never know. You might stumbled upon these modest blog of mine but i hope you never know who i meant. Because i don't want you to feel weird around me. Feel different.
I withdrawn. You might even not noticed it. I backed out. And i hope i can leave you. Leave everyone behind. Hope you don't notice me leaving. Enjoy your life and those around you and forget about me. It's better that way. Saying my last goodbye to you.
Time shall heal whatever is broken. Still got 2 years left of school. It'll take up my time. Quiting Starbucks soon. Parents already angry about it. Guess i'm not going to work for the rest of my poly life. Got to start finding stuff to do to get cash. Errands. Design. Acting. Whatever. I need it.
You might never see the last of me but i try. I could try so you might see the less of me. Oh well, you won't see the difference anyhow. Why would you care? I'm just another person who stumbled upon you and enter into your life. I'll go out the same way. I'll find the exit. Our shall pass each others but never shall it intertwined.
So long there. Hope this end. Fast.
Went to camp to forget about it. Forget? Getting worse in fact. Dream of you. Now listening to "Lagu Untuk mu" by "Meet Uncle Hussein". About two hearts that can never be together due to certain reasons. I just know that me and you. Never going to happen.
We used to be close. Used to. I heard about you with another guy. Happy to hear that. Jealous too. Any guy that manage to win your heart is a lucky man. I'll tell him that. This problem i'm facing is different than any other. Why? Because it's the first time that i dream about a girl. I mean, its weird. You get my drift. This girl. Different. Yeah, all girls are different but this. I don't know. I'm confused. When we first met. I've dreamt that i would have this feeling for her. Not now. Friends. Why can't that feeling just stay that way? Well, maybe it should. I must. Don't i?
Haha. Such a long post this is. I've got an essay to finish up and paper to study for tomorrow but i guess, i just need to let this feelings out. It's been kept for too long. I'm hurting myself in the process. Shitty feelings. Come at the wrong time. The past few weeks. All i yearn is to see your face. I kept peeking. Just getting a glance is enough. I sound like a stalker. I know. Haha.
I cried. I'm shattered. I'm downed. I put up with a smile. You don't need to see the weaker side of me. Heard, you may. You too put up a brave front in front of the others and i'm pround of that. Of how strong you are. I'm broken. Tears falling down your face pearced me deep inside. You might never know. You might stumbled upon these modest blog of mine but i hope you never know who i meant. Because i don't want you to feel weird around me. Feel different.
I withdrawn. You might even not noticed it. I backed out. And i hope i can leave you. Leave everyone behind. Hope you don't notice me leaving. Enjoy your life and those around you and forget about me. It's better that way. Saying my last goodbye to you.
Time shall heal whatever is broken. Still got 2 years left of school. It'll take up my time. Quiting Starbucks soon. Parents already angry about it. Guess i'm not going to work for the rest of my poly life. Got to start finding stuff to do to get cash. Errands. Design. Acting. Whatever. I need it.
You might never see the last of me but i try. I could try so you might see the less of me. Oh well, you won't see the difference anyhow. Why would you care? I'm just another person who stumbled upon you and enter into your life. I'll go out the same way. I'll find the exit. Our shall pass each others but never shall it intertwined.
So long there. Hope this end. Fast.
Thought of a guy,
M F S F S
P.S. Smile always aite.
M F S F S
P.S. Smile always aite.